Friends?

Two post in one day! What? I just had stuff on my mind. I was looking through my fb friend's and found a whole bunch of people I was once so close to that I no longer ever hear from. I also have a friend that won't accept my request that I once considered my best friend. Why is it that life separates us like that? I also wonder if the people from my past know how much they have meant to me. People enter our lives and change us. Good or bad they leave their mark. Why is it so hard to tell people how you feel? Maybe it's just me. I have typed a name in the message box so many times and deleted the message without sending it. Love is the one thing in this world we can give for free. Why is it that we are so stingy with it?

My Holliday Plan

It has been a while blog readers. Sorry I won't let it happen again. The holidays are upon us. I have decided to be more positive. No more worrying about money or who will or won't get a gift. Who cares if the dog ate the lights off the tree. And the verdict is... Life goes on. Worry or don't Christmas still is coming. Some people won't get a gift. I don't have lights on the tree. In the end all that does not matter. What is the most important remains... My family, my friends, and Jesus.

I challenge you all to do these things this Christmas season.
1) Love one another. ~ Have a kind word for the poor soul that has been standing at the cash register for 8 hours. When the crazy lady pushes you at the mall to buy the last popular toy, smile at her and say "God bless you. Merry Christmas!".
2) Help someone in need. ~ You don't have to spend money to do this. Carry groceries to the car for an older person. Help a friend wrap presents. Take a plate of leftovers to someone who lives alone.
3) Let the people in your life know they are loved. ~ This is the most important one. I recently lost a friend at age 32. He was hit by a car on the way home from work. You never know which moment is your or someone else's last!

Try these 3 simple things this holiday season. They may not change the world, but chances are they will change you!

6 Hours

I leave for the hospital in about 6 hours. No big suprise I can't sleep. So much seems to be missing in my life. What if these are the last 6 hours of it? I keep thinking of all the things I haven't done and all the people that I have lost touch with. I haven't been a very good friend to some amazing people. I got to thinking about what people would say about me if I was gone. All I can think is "She was a very sad girl that never fully used her talents.

6 Days

In 6 days I will undergo a total knee replacement. It kinda sucks but is a nessary evil. I'm only 30 so I'm a bit young for the surgey. I'm afraid. I don't say it out loud much but I am. The Dr. asked me before we agreed to the surgery how I would feel if I lost the leg?! What do you say to that? I said,"They make plastic legs. Let's do this." Maybe I'm crazy, but constant pain will make you agree to almost anything. I'm ready to feel better. I've been told it's the worst pain ever after the surgery. That worries me. Most things worry me though. I try to be postive, but I can't help thinking of the what ifs. I'm the only parent my daughter has. What happens to her if I don't make it off the table?